So Gone

It’s funny how we love to love…but love doesn’t love us back…yet it’s a sure fact that I love hard but it sucks that no one is there to catch me when I’m ready to fall. You see I pushed you away as hard as I could, so you would go astray. But you kept beating down my door until I just couldn’t take it anymore. I started to allow you to find your way back into my heart, the same spot you once occupied. Now that I have matured I know how to treat a man and what role I play in the relationship. I learned to be submissive and supportive of your ambitions and your dreams and did I mention...I would follow you all around God’s green Earth. For your love is the one I shut out but when you wanted to make it work I had nothing but hesistant thought. And now I’m ready but you’re no longer there. Now you like the idea of being single but don't wanna to mingle. So why open a door you weren’t ready for or too lazy to walk through. I’m just asking you to be a man and understand that I too have issues with this life you wanna pursue. I’m not talking about anything illegal I’m simply talking about this relationship that isn’t legal in eyes of God. But I won’t and I can’t be that girl I once was because I need to be the Woman God called me to be. Oh it was that weak naive unstable girl you adored well I’m sorry for your loss because I am at the point of no return. I guess I’ll be going because I know the plan He has for me is much greater than this misery you have indeed placed upon me. I hope that you find that girl you are looking for because I know I will find he whom I’m patiently waiting for.

It's Human Nature to Wonder this Way....

When it Doesn't Work Out the First Time...Will it Work Out the Second Time?

Love is the best feeling in the World but, Can be the Most Painful...I have always wanted to marry young...maybe 24ish but I see how things in my life have changed. Not only has my major changed but so has the Love of My Life...Although I am Single I am Very Much Involved with God. I Have found True Unconditional Love with Him...but as Far as Worldly Relationships...I'm Not Sure if I have it in me to allow him back into My World...I have changed immensely...I'm not that Samantha he fell in love with...But he wants back in so bad. How do I Back Track when I have moved so much ahead...I try and not allow him to detour my Destination. How am I really Suppose to Know if I should Give it another Chance? I know I have plenty of Great things going for myself...but I do get tired of being alone and I'm not talking about sex, someone to take a walk with a night, someone to hold my hand when I need to cry and talk about my daddy or even someone to talk on the phone for hours about silly nothings...How do you know when someone special isn't all that special anymore? I wanted more commitment...he wasn't ready to let go of that single life...I was tried of the side dishes he kept here and there...so I just let it go out of nowhere...now it's all falling down like a ton of bricks...Do I give it another try or do I just let it burn...I'm not that same young naive Samantha anymore...