Dance of Love

Loves dances around you and I
It's only gotten better over time
Far from tainted,
Lightly brushed your kiss on my cheek,
Your whisper of sweet nothings in my ear
Such a beautiful aura we've painted
Has to be a moment of 'too good to be true'...
I mean ain't it?!
I've never smiled more in all my years
Loving you and letting go of all my fears
Our dance of love hasn't been perfect
Lost of rhythm, cut ins and stepped on toes
But we've always found our way back
To each others souls
With God as lead we'll be just fine
Two lovers intertwined
In this dance of love
That couldn't be more divine
Whether we're doing the tango, ballroom dance, salsa, two stepping or just rocking back and forth
I chose you as my life partner
So would you do me the honors
Take my hand
And let's make this the dance of our lives

Brick Layer

Now I struggled with this poem...It could have went two different ways. But I think I have this version just right. I'm sure there will be a Part 2. Enjoy!


I live my life in school,
So I can have a great career.
Along the way I've picked up another trait
Laying bricks tall and straight.
Starting out I wasn't that good at it
When I allowed someone in
Shortly after it toppled.
But now my brick layers
Resemble the Great Wall of China
At the capacity that I keep stacking
I'm surely gonna build it
Straight up to Heaven
You see this brick wall is to protect
Something logic and intellect can't dissect.
My heart, love, feelings and secrets,
I wanna let you in but I suspect
You don't really want it..
Just interested in
The outside that everyone sees.
And not knowing the great woman in me
Due to trial and error,
I've learned about structure and layers.
How to cover up the weak spots
Keeping the foundation strong
So I can build to the top
And smile through the madness
That others wouldn't understand
After a number of attempted love failures,
I've became a great brick layer.

Unintentional Harm

No one knew things would unravel so fast
Never imagine this situation would come about
In search of something far from my past
Innocent flirting and hanging out
A few conversations and drinks later
Spicy behavior began to fill the air
No boundaries or lines to stop us
I thought we were in the clear
Until I began to feel something that I knew was rare
I fought it off as best I could
Knowing nothing to come of this
Would be any good
It's far from just physical
Mental is all it took
To get my blood pumping and heart racing
My emotions I knew soon I'd be facing
Things I promised myself I'd keep locked up and hide
Are coming at me like an ocean's tide
It's my fault you see
Living life worry and care free
I knew it was bound to catch up with me.
No one could have predicted what summer of 2010 would have brought
I just know it will always be one of my favorite thoughts
The slight hurt of unintentional harm
Almost feels like a bee sting in the arm
It will hurt and be sore for a while
But you cover it up with a band aid and a smile.

Your Presence

Your presence
It's such a blessing to me
Your very essence
You appear to have the presence of a 12 foot statue
Although God blessed you with a 5'6 stature
Tantalizing smell of you sends me into euphoria
Slight brush of your arm runs chills through my spine
Your lips grazing and biting my cheek makes me almost feel close to weak
Being in your very presence is how I'd love to spend my time
I'm not quite sure if you can grasp my reality
Just the thought of you fills me up with a beautiful butterfly
To say I don't want every part of you would be a lie
Understand it's much more than physical
Your mind captivates me
On levels you wouldn't believe
The mental stimulation you give
Makes me wanna dig
Deeper into your being
Your presence
It just enlightens me
The capabilities you have as a God fearing man
Makes me want to cater to you foot and hand
It's just this over all calm and aura you possess
I would have to simply state
It's your presence

The Aftermath

I think about you daily
Almost as if it's a ritual
And it's been getting a little rough lately
These emotions I deliberately suppressed
Coming to flood me and I've got no life vest
My heart feels slightly distressed
Tears like these feels so foreign to my eyes
Streaming down in which seems to be a never ending sea of cries
Recalling when I was last like this,
I was saying my goodbyes.

Past memories of you bombarding my mind
If I can only live through them one last time,
You see it's not that I forgot about you
But someone had to be strong
Mom's eyes were continuously wet
While Steven's anger made it seem as if he were gone
The pain that ripped through my heart
Sent my mind, body and soul into a permanent state of shock
Couldn't allow my true feelings to unfold
So my emotions lay under lock and key
Not allowing this tragic event to get the best of me.

Didn't realize how much hurt and anger I had inside
Until the day I found myself questioning God, why?!
My graduation, wedding and future children you wouldn't be around to witness
But now I'm older I take it for what it is
I wouldn't want nothing more than for you to be here
But He called you home so He could keep you near
So I know one day
I'll walk through those pearly gates
And see you waiting with that smile
Calling me Princess again
Just like you did when I was a child.

See the type of woman I am

See the type of woman I am...
I loved you for 5 and 1/2 years, 66 months and roughly 2007 days
From the top of your large head to the rough soles of your feet
I embraced your flaws and became your biggest supporter

See the type of woman I am...
I gave you all of me, every ounce of love and passion; everything I had
I loved you beyond any words Webster could have ever created
There wasn't anything I wasn't willing to do to see those pearly whites shine through

See the type of woman I am...
Never thought twice about the lies and betrayal
Dumbfounded when I came across some numbers of Nikki and Chanel
You lied and I listened, but always on high alert of your deceit

See the type of woman I am...
I knew there was more than what I was led to believe
Searched and pondered until I found what I was looking for, right in front of my face
Emotions of digust, hurt and rejection took home in my mind, body and soul

See the type of woman I am...
I gave everything to this man just for my love to be thrown back at me
All these feelings of insecurities which was so rare to me
Had me asking, what wasn't good enough...my mind, my looks, my love, my touch

See the type of woman I am...
I lived in this lie because I was 'Stupid in Love'
Found blame in only me, I tried so hard
Began to drive myself insane

See the type of woman I was...
Is no longer the woman who stands before you today
She was weak and in need of validation,
That of a man who wasn't even worthy to validate himself
She keeps her heart guarded knowing one day her soul mate will come to take his claim

My 90 Day Challenge

My Pastor Asked the Congregation to Come Up with at least 7 Goals to Start or Accomplish within 90 Days. Our 90 Days will End on Easter Sunday...So Here are My Goals...I Came Up with 10 of them...Maybe you have a few Goals you'd Like to Accomplish within 90 Days...Enjoy!

1. Work out at least 4 times a week for at least 45 minutes. If not the only person I am cheating is myself and my future.
2. Begin Pathway to Purpose Classes Again and Finish. Although it will take longer than 90 days to finish it will be worth it.
3. Pray and Fast at least once a month. Fasting can build our faith and perseverance, enabling us to determine to stand strong on God’s Word.
4. God made Sex for Marriage. Since you are not married you will remain celibate and refrain from all sexual activities.
5. Watch what I say…"Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit." (Proverbs 18:21)
6. Eat healthier. What is the point of working out if you’re going to eat garbage and not get any healthier?
7. Study at least 6 to 8 hours a week. Nursing school isn’t going to be easy.
8. Quit procrastinating. Why put off things you can do today tomorrow? Tomorrow is never guaranteed.
9. Love those around you and never settle. You deserve the best of everything so why not go out and get it?
10. Stay positive. Do not cave into any negative thoughts or past sins!